helloooo. its been so long since i last updated my blog. so, lately, i've been busy w poly attachment at Temasek Poly. Hehehehe. So, there, I clashed to PSS senior, Adil. He is so tall, managed to have some catch up w him. His actually such a good guy! Oh, & aft school, I would go out w the twins, & ila. Lepak at the twins crib. It was fun though.

I just wanna let out all my feelings. Gerald, if you're reading this, I hope you understand. Things have been rough lately, and I want things to go smoothly. As said to everyone, life is about having fun, and I want to be free. I know you love me, alot. I know I cant hurt you, but to me, having a relationship is not important. Maybe things in India isnt the same as in Singapore. Whats the relationship for when we barely spend time together? I know our time we spent was only in India and Deepavali. I really miss those times. You hug me before sleep every night, you sending me to bed. I miss that, but when we reached in Singapore, we barely meet and spend time together, that makes my feelings fade. I want us to last, because I tot to give you another chance and able to be w you forever. But things have made me realized, that I cant be w you anymore. People say what they wanna say, people have no idea what I'm going thru. Yes, I may look like I've been flirting and stuffs, but I know how to limit my friendship, where to end etc. I do want to try having a chinese boyfriend and know what it feels like, but sadly, at the rate we're going, this is not how I want it to be. I dont want us to be together, but there is no memories made you see. I've waited for so long to spend my time w you, even my mum knows about us, but, you? You cant even spend your time w me. I have my own reasons on why I do not wanna go to your house. Understand me please. All I'm asking for is just your time for me, & you cant seemed to be giving it to me. I have to let you go, dont let me suffer alone. Us being together, but no memories throughout, then what is this relationship for? Isnt it better if we're just friends then, bcus it seems that we only hang out when there's a whole group reunion or group gathering, but, time for just us, where is it? WHERE. I'm sorry if this hurts you and the rest, but, think of my feelings and my efforts in putting us together, perfectly, w memories.

I also want my friends to know that I have my own reasons why I hang out w different different people. Doesnt mean I hang out w chinese friends often, I forget about you guys. I would also like to make new friends, and get to know them better. Must I always stick to my clique often? No. I also must be given the chance to open up my network huh. I know you guys better than them. I love you all, regardless, my chinese, Indian, malay friends, you all are my friends, I love to hang out w you guys. Memories were made huh. For example, Hari Raya, all of us went to Cikgu Sunarti's house and boom her house together, and there's apologizing ceremony, and we had fun didnt we? Town, pasir ris park, e!hub, chilling out aft school, how can I ever forget you guys? Maybe, its the other way round? I understand if I'm not part of you guys anymore, the five of us, maybe just four of you guys, the malay gang, maybe I'm not part of it anymore. #kunjis, #thecrew, I had loads of fun w you guys, we went shopping, India trip, laughed like crazy! All those moments, I miss those. Maybe I'm no longer in there already.

I guess thats all. Thanks for your time reading, Insyallah I'll be hardworking enough to update daily.